June 29, 2015 Last night I told my Mom that the worst thing about having cancer was the fact that she made me eat a whole bowl of kale. Bleh, tastes like the smell of mowing the lawn! I told her that if she squeezed the kale into pill form then I’d eat it.  Even […]

June 28, 2015 I know it may seem cliche to say that now that I have cancer I take notice of the things that I took for granted before. But I don’t care, it’s true. I stood in the middle of camp and stared at the trees and at the sky. Pine trees just have this majestic feel […]

June 27, 2015 My parents came today, praise God that they have the summer off and that they got here safe! The Lord showed His blessings today as Camp was so generous and had the resources to host them and set them up with a room. Camp has saved my life so far, kind of […]

June 26, 2015 Today, I was diagnosed with Cancer. I have Cancer, it’s something I never anticipated saying or even thinking about but the doctor’s report is in. You know, as she was explaining that it was Merkel Cell cancer and its rare and has never been seen in someone my age I just had […]

July 10, 2015 Today I was pondering the past 2 weeks as I retold the past events to several friends of mine. I think one of the hardest things about trials is that we are forced to die to our expectations. If you think about it, if we had zero expectations about how our life […]

July 12, 2015 It was so hard for me not to write yesterday! I was tempted to stay up all night writing about the thoughts, convictions, and emotions stirring in my brain. But I never want to feel guilty for not writing, it’s not my job to write instead I love to write and I […]

July 14, 2015.Cancer battle part two is finished. Here I sit I.V. in one hand, two drains in my neck, stitches covering my face, a flappy hospital gown on, a groaning roommate, and the sound of beepers indicating life functions,. You know the funny thing is I used to want to spend the night at […]

July 15, 2015.I feel like I am a SIM. Not controlled by my own mind but controlled by nurses one minute, drugs the next minute, doctors another time, nutrition at one point, and then cancer takes a turn. They tell me when to pee, when to sleep, when to eat, what to do and when […]

 July 16, 2015. Today hurts. I feel weary, exhausted, helpless, and in a lot of pain. The numbness has nearly worn off completely so I can feel the throbbing of each stitch and the pull of the drain in my neck. The pain meds don’t make the pain go away they just make me forget […]

July 17, 2015. Facebook is like a buried time capsule of every stage in your life. I am so entertained by going all the way back to 2009 and reliving who I was as a freshmen in high school when it was cool to update your status every day and do Truth is challenges and […]